today 17/3/2013 (Sunday )
It seem so long am leaving this blog , since my last post on Dec 12 . Yeahh so far Alhamdulillah am happy with my life with the one I love the most :) of course my family and my sugarglider *joking lol sayang of course with you Ameerul Syaffiq B. Rosdi .
memandangkan si dia sedang sibuk berkursus it would be me now even rarely gonna update latest news It okay as long as am still posting some news :) . Alhamdulillah till now even we had a big fight we're still together melalui fasa pehubungan yang penuh kasih sayang .*bole cenggitu , tapi kalau da ade fight haru jugak kan . ƗƗaƗƗaƗƗaƗƗaƗƗa .but as long as benda tu still bole bawak bincang duduk open table bincang cara matured tak kira laa how long time taken time tu , penah jugak laa gaduh punya gaduh nak settle kan jugak problem kiteorg ni open table till 1.30 am . sampai tuan kedai duk nunggu kiteorg je haa nak tutup kedai . In fact actually #discussion ni bagus sebab bila kita da start discuss apa yang kita tak puas hati , apa yang salah semua rasa yang terpendam tu 'all out'. In sha Allah ape-2 prob after this discuss elok-2 .
for now he's continue his study on his profession , so almost of the time our prob is the same it about "time" . so this is it where I've to learn how to fulfill my time with something , yeahh but not all the time actually since am working 12 hours per day . like what he told me fahami dia so nanti-2 kalau kawin pon takdelah asyik nak kepit 24 jam kan :D
future planning
actually I don't want to hoping anymore cause I'd know pain that I'd to bear ,hoping on something that I can't see right now . like what kate perry said in the one that got away "talk about our future like we had a clue , NEVER plan that one day I'd be losing you " . enough on what I'd being through before , All I'd ever dream just to be with the one that can take a good care love me for who I am . but as I am ordinary girl with a dream to have own family yeahh I've talk to him bout my opinion to take another big step in our relationship and yess ! glad he know what in my mind .
as our conversation seriously not just once dah banyak kali okay , banyak talk bout this sebab apa ? sebab still ada feeling ragu-2 maybe . In sha Allah kalau murah rezeki takde pape halangan secepatnya memang nak cepat disatukan . As for my family Alhamdulillah green light sudah for his family I thought still yellow cause I'd know his parent nak tgok anak dia ni boleh ke berdikari , boleh ke nak jaga anak dara orang yelah nanti kawin nak provide makan minum bini , itu ini semua pakai duit . so skrg time to prove that we can alive by our own feet . In sha Allah kalau dah Allah tulis nun di luh mahfuz dia tu jodoh kita selagi kita bole berjuang untuk bnda baik akan ada jalan :)
so my plan now :
as our conversation seriously not just once dah banyak kali okay , banyak talk bout this sebab apa ? sebab still ada feeling ragu-2 maybe . In sha Allah kalau murah rezeki takde pape halangan secepatnya memang nak cepat disatukan . As for my family Alhamdulillah green light sudah for his family I thought still yellow cause I'd know his parent nak tgok anak dia ni boleh ke berdikari , boleh ke nak jaga anak dara orang yelah nanti kawin nak provide makan minum bini , itu ini semua pakai duit . so skrg time to prove that we can alive by our own feet . In sha Allah kalau dah Allah tulis nun di luh mahfuz dia tu jodoh kita selagi kita bole berjuang untuk bnda baik akan ada jalan :)
so my plan now :
- kumpul duit slow-2 lambat sikit takpe jangan smpai nak kawin bhutang .
- focus on my career *ade jgak plan nak carik keje len >.<
- cari kemudahan untuk diri sendiri , kang da kwin tak nyusah kan orang .
tu jelaa kot stakt ni yg tpikir , hm tapi walau apa pon kita kan merancang semua ditentukan oleh Allah s.w.t hanya dengan doa , usaha dan tawakal segalanya pasti :) .
"bi'iznillah"
if Allah will